Eyes-wide-open, deeply personal voyage through the history of Christian belief
In 2003, while touring the U.S. with his wife in an RV, John Suk -- lifelong Christian, longtime pastor, and noted leader in the Christian Reformed Church -- experienced a crippling crisis of faith. He emerged from that dark time with the gift of a second sight -- doubt. In Not Sure
Suk looks back at Christian faith -- in fifteen centuries of Christian history and in his own life -- through a skeptic's eyes. He exposes major pitfalls of modern Christian movements and questions what he considers to be faulty paradigms: the "personal relationship with Jesus," the "health-and-wealth gospel," and traditional ethnicity-based belief systems. In the end he is left clinging to what is for him a truer, wiser kind of faith in Jesus Christ -- faith that wavers; faith that questions; faith that is not sure
Read a blog post by Suk related to the book on EerdWord
AWARDS and RECOGNITIONS
Academy of Parish Clergy, Top Ten Books for Parish Ministry (2012)
Cornelius Plantinga Jr.
— author of Beyond Doubt: Faith-Building Devotions on Questions Christians Ask
"John Suk is as honest as the Bible. With an angular, unforgettable voice he joins the psalmists who dare to lament their losses before the face of God because even lament is at bottom an expression of faith. A memorable book!"
Michael L. Lindvall
— The Brick Presbyterian Church, New York City
"Doubt, John Suk discovers, is not so much the opposite of faith as it is faith's awkward companion. This noted pastor weaves a bluntly honest spiritual autobiography with sweeping doctrinal history to conclude that doubt is the 'ants in the pants of faith,' discomforting the too comfortably faithful into a more mature trust in God."
— Noah Porter Professor Emeritus of Philosophical Theology at Yale University
"A rich, eloquent, beautifully written book. . . Seldom has personal story been so imaginatively interwoven with cultural history, analysis, and critique. (from foreword)"
"Suk writes an honest, intelligent account of his journey and relates it to the cultural shifts that impede faith."
Calvin Theological Journal
"Eminently worth buying and reading reflectively. . . . The book is a poignant, personal affirmation of the deepest dimension of faith. . . . It is superbly crafted and deeply reflective."
"John Suk's pastoral reflections will be a great aid to those preachers who dare face their doubts while living honestly with their faith."
Sharing the Practice
"This is a good book for pastors to read and meditate upon."